哪一个是你的真心话？你每次把花说得好听，可是，我真的不知道，你哪一个是说个样，哪一个是真的你的感觉，所以我才没有安全感吧...
just now an answer popped into my head . maybe you dun feel i trust you , dun give u security .. maybe wan sia does ba . see how u reacted when you're in bintan says everything . only when u trust that person , and feel safe with that person will you only go finding that person when the person's far away from you .. maybe u left that person cos u cant reject me so willing to help . maybe cos u dw to break my heart . but .. i really wish you to choose who u really want and i will pray for u to be happy , that's where i will be contented . choosing between two , you're always talking to shu yi thru sms , but , u ended up choosing wan sia alr tells me clearly ur answer and my supporting evidence ..
when i really wants to help , you reject .. not wanting me to worry is an excuse to me .. if we're friends then let me share the pain with you , idw to just only share the joy together and leave u alone when u are sad . it just simply sucks the way you want it to be . keeping it to urself just make me feel so ass , fked up and wanna cry .. why ..
not trusting me just simply stabs my heart when u made doubting tones . why must u suspect me and think u are the one right . why cant you ensure that its nt you before making the doubt ? it says everything uh .. heart breaks , tears flowed , for all i've done .
hate botenic garden .. maybe cos of the guilt , like you owed him something , when he ask u do something u dont want , u obliged willingly . when i asked you , you either says '' you know i dun like taking pictures '' or just appear so fake and unwillingly in front of the camera . just simply hate the feeling ... make me feel so .. ha .. fked myself . why is there a difference . running away from the feeling is the only thing i can do so that i wont appear wierd in front of you and i wont feel de damn you feeling .
using phone in front of me , lying sy to say im ur mother , asking u to slp so u wont need to reply her in chalet , lying that ur mother bring u go snow city , say will reply later , u ignored me so long , yet i've to reply u fast if nt u will dear ? me , ha ... turning my head away cos idw look at you , and that damn phone becos u didnt spare a thought for me . u say u have nothing to say when i used but did u stand in my position and think . how u reacted so loudly to a msg will make me wanna say shut up and sms quietly . all u did was to ask wat happen and ask when u're looking at the phone ? fuck you . i rather u sms like no one's business in front of me and dc abt me than you wanna entertain two ppl at a time . its impossible , i rather u hurt one ppl than two . so fked up .
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