我开始懂了。
tying me so tightly , does it really help ? it'll make me hate you more .
no trust means no trust . dont say you trying -.- becos it'll never be the same and it'll never be .
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
You dk how i feel .
you rather trust what you heard when you dk the full story than to trust me . this is trust , to you .
True friends will share her happiness and sadness with you . friends who only share their happiness are nt even treating u as friends . to me , they are people who are superficial . yes i know you dw me sad , yes i know u want me happy . but you're not me , how u know wat im thinking .
Im only one of ur checkers to make ur child happy . have you ever thot how i feel ? have u ever know tt i treated u like a close friend ? have you ever thot of my feelings even if its not ur child tt im saying .
is it acceptance or a form of assurance ?
sometimes i wonder how u rate the imptance of me in ur heart .
i dont owe u a single shit . even if im dissapointing the whole world , im trying to do my best for you . yet this is all i get , dissapointment all over again .
you really love him . I , bless you and give u my blessings .
i really dk how u treat me like and what am i to you ? a punching bag ? a machine u can vent on ? a dog ?
i dont owe you anything and i want u to just be happy . you took me for granted . and u hurt me again and again . YOU are the one who ask me nt to mention the past yet u cant let go . u cant go doesnt mean i can .
do you knw how hurting are ur words esp when you're angry . do u know how i feel . did u ever put yrself in my shoes . always say i owe you . i dont owe you anything . im doing it just for YOU.
i hate to break promises . i hate to dissapoint others . yet im dissapointing the whole world just for you . did u ever know abt anything . did u ever be thankful for it ? or u think its normal for me to decide to do it this way . u always assume things in ur way .yours and forever yours . your world and my world is different . friends are tgt becos of their differences . yet you want me to change for you . have u ever thot how i felt ? you want a perfect friend , im not . and im never one .
i know im dumb , im stupid and im useless . dont keep emphasise it even in ur conver with me . it hurt like a totally single shit . fuck you , asshole , are u dumb , stupid , come on, these words are really salt and peppers in my everyday life . what am i to you . you made me feel totally useless in ur eyes .
dont pms and vent on me and say a thousand and one single shit and wanna end it with a single sorry . its useless . i simply hate it .
dont treat me like a fool . i know everything and i can see .
you hate me and thr's no trust btw us .
True friends will share her happiness and sadness with you . friends who only share their happiness are nt even treating u as friends . to me , they are people who are superficial . yes i know you dw me sad , yes i know u want me happy . but you're not me , how u know wat im thinking .
Im only one of ur checkers to make ur child happy . have you ever thot how i feel ? have u ever know tt i treated u like a close friend ? have you ever thot of my feelings even if its not ur child tt im saying .
is it acceptance or a form of assurance ?
sometimes i wonder how u rate the imptance of me in ur heart .
i dont owe u a single shit . even if im dissapointing the whole world , im trying to do my best for you . yet this is all i get , dissapointment all over again .
you really love him . I , bless you and give u my blessings .
i really dk how u treat me like and what am i to you ? a punching bag ? a machine u can vent on ? a dog ?
i dont owe you anything and i want u to just be happy . you took me for granted . and u hurt me again and again . YOU are the one who ask me nt to mention the past yet u cant let go . u cant go doesnt mean i can .
do you knw how hurting are ur words esp when you're angry . do u know how i feel . did u ever put yrself in my shoes . always say i owe you . i dont owe you anything . im doing it just for YOU.
i hate to break promises . i hate to dissapoint others . yet im dissapointing the whole world just for you . did u ever know abt anything . did u ever be thankful for it ? or u think its normal for me to decide to do it this way . u always assume things in ur way .yours and forever yours . your world and my world is different . friends are tgt becos of their differences . yet you want me to change for you . have u ever thot how i felt ? you want a perfect friend , im not . and im never one .
i know im dumb , im stupid and im useless . dont keep emphasise it even in ur conver with me . it hurt like a totally single shit . fuck you , asshole , are u dumb , stupid , come on, these words are really salt and peppers in my everyday life . what am i to you . you made me feel totally useless in ur eyes .
dont pms and vent on me and say a thousand and one single shit and wanna end it with a single sorry . its useless . i simply hate it .
dont treat me like a fool . i know everything and i can see .
you hate me and thr's no trust btw us .
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
I've no confidence of myself
25/5 : hamham died . she blamed herself . my heart breaks to see her this way .
''it hurts to know everything '' haha , her , again . (':
''it hurts to know everything '' haha , her , again . (':
多痛都可以，不能没有你。
你了解我的心情吗？！真的想要毁掉承诺吗？！说要正常的是你，不相信我的人也是你。说的容易做得难吧，我讨厌你这样的告诉她我们的事。我不管什么感受，一句都不会说。真的要分享吗？好不愿意的心情。
she's special to you , dont she .. she did nth yet the same treatment . I did so much , hurt dao cannt alr , cry dao my heart is really bleeding , yet .. haha , 知觉，我恨死你。
Again and again , my heart hurts . really really do .
Again and again , i cant protect her . once again , empty promises i have given .
everytime you and her something happened , your dont say i'll also know . my institution haha , strong anot , idk . but mostly correct . plus both something happened , i'll tear like bullshit and go crazy , her mummy will also sad .
You're asked me to shut up for the n times alr .
Trust , is never thr anymore .
she's special to you , dont she .. she did nth yet the same treatment . I did so much , hurt dao cannt alr , cry dao my heart is really bleeding , yet .. haha , 知觉，我恨死你。
Again and again , my heart hurts . really really do .
Again and again , i cant protect her . once again , empty promises i have given .
everytime you and her something happened , your dont say i'll also know . my institution haha , strong anot , idk . but mostly correct . plus both something happened , i'll tear like bullshit and go crazy , her mummy will also sad .
You're asked me to shut up for the n times alr .
Trust , is never thr anymore .
我假装不在意，而痛了自己。
好冷淡。
痛到无法自拔。
不是不爽，是心痛，因为在分享给好多好多人。
虽然没有期待你会改变，可是我还是有那么一点的对你失望。
被约束的我，真的习惯这样吗？
你把我当笨蛋看待。
痛到无法自拔。
不是不爽，是心痛，因为在分享给好多好多人。
虽然没有期待你会改变，可是我还是有那么一点的对你失望。
被约束的我，真的习惯这样吗？
你把我当笨蛋看待。
宁愿沉默不语，
The truth hurts ,
Its nt the first time . It hurts . why must it be her .. why .. why .. :'(... heart ,srsly hurts .
你，伤透了我的心。很痛。。。怎么办。。痛。。。。 :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT ...
我，到底在期待什么。明知道自己自私，分享，好痛，好难，可是我被迫那么做。。难过。。
当我问你那句为什么是我的时候，你有察觉到我心里的恐慌吗？因为我开始对自己没信心了，她和你。。。。太像了。
嫉妒是因为没有安全感，对自己没信心。
当你和我吵架时，你有想过为什么会吗？你有试着了解吗？
有体谅过我的心情吗？
我，很没用，连自己心爱的人也保护不了，她需要我的时候，我在哪里？
Its nt the first time . It hurts . why must it be her .. why .. why .. :'(... heart ,srsly hurts .
你，伤透了我的心。很痛。。。怎么办。。痛。。。。 :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT ...
我，到底在期待什么。明知道自己自私，分享，好痛，好难，可是我被迫那么做。。难过。。
当我问你那句为什么是我的时候，你有察觉到我心里的恐慌吗？因为我开始对自己没信心了，她和你。。。。太像了。
嫉妒是因为没有安全感，对自己没信心。
当你和我吵架时，你有想过为什么会吗？你有试着了解吗？
有体谅过我的心情吗？
我，很没用，连自己心爱的人也保护不了，她需要我的时候，我在哪里？
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Feelings , Im tired of all these ,
I always walk in front of you when you're smsing , turn my head , close my ears , and i really really hope to sit far till i cant hear , cant see . ha . not i walk fast , my pace is the same . its you tt's so busy smsing . hate it when something happened between you and ur DEAREST and you dun sayy but give me tt face . so FUCKEDDDD AHHHH .
承诺对你可能一文不值，对我而言很珍贵，很重要。对不起，已经没用了，对不起的意思是什么？是为了说而说吗？是真心的吗？为什么让我怀疑？你知道每当其他人说对不起，它让我勾起好多回忆，好痛的三个字。
没遵守诺言的家伙，我恨你。
在说谎之前，价值值多少。
原来我不能让你彻底改变，
信任和机会是自己争取的，不是和别人要，
Do you know how much it takes to trust after each lie ?! because its you tt's why i wanna trust you , but its also becos its you , idw any lies .
everyone thinks tt their lives are a piece of shit , not only you .
when heart is shattered , no matter how you mend , its never the same anymore . dont break a shattered heart , the pieces are too small tt it went thru and pierce thru it .
Do you know how it feels to be an option between something AGAIN and AGAIN ? feels so fked . idl you to smile when you know tt its cig smell. it makes me so pissed off , as if it made you so happy . HA ! and , i really hate to hear tt msg tone , so fked . 人在可是心和魂不在，haha . is it so boring to be with me tt you've to sms ? or you just simply cant live without ur phone . lol . haha . again . an option . haha .
承诺对你可能一文不值，对我而言很珍贵，很重要。对不起，已经没用了，对不起的意思是什么？是为了说而说吗？是真心的吗？为什么让我怀疑？你知道每当其他人说对不起，它让我勾起好多回忆，好痛的三个字。
没遵守诺言的家伙，我恨你。
在说谎之前，价值值多少。
原来我不能让你彻底改变，
信任和机会是自己争取的，不是和别人要，
Do you know how much it takes to trust after each lie ?! because its you tt's why i wanna trust you , but its also becos its you , idw any lies .
everyone thinks tt their lives are a piece of shit , not only you .
when heart is shattered , no matter how you mend , its never the same anymore . dont break a shattered heart , the pieces are too small tt it went thru and pierce thru it .
Do you know how it feels to be an option between something AGAIN and AGAIN ? feels so fked . idl you to smile when you know tt its cig smell. it makes me so pissed off , as if it made you so happy . HA ! and , i really hate to hear tt msg tone , so fked . 人在可是心和魂不在，haha . is it so boring to be with me tt you've to sms ? or you just simply cant live without ur phone . lol . haha . again . an option . haha .
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